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I think it's coming back again and i don't know how to feel about it. The pattern is too familiar. Spending my days off in bed all day and trying to sleep as much as i can to escape my reality. Only this time around i think i feel it more. I can't get him out of my head. And this time it isn't just one person. I'm starting to think of a million other reasons on why i'm this way. Nothing is helping. The only thing that could possibly help i don't have anymore.   I just don't know how much more i can take or how much more i can lose before i really just start over. I know eventually i'm finally going to. But i'm stuck until the spring of 2015. I just feel like im suffocating sometimes.